Feeling Left Behind

May 2018 will mark 2 years since the creation of Aesthetic Obsessed and while it began as a hobby over the past couple of years I’ve fallen in love with everything to do with blogging well other than scheduling tweets and now I’m going to the end of my degree in dance…I have 2 weeks before my dissertation deadline, I’m questioning as to what to do after university.

For the past year, I’ve taken blogging a lot more seriously and it’s opened a lot more doors for me, giving me access to opportunities I’d only ever dreamt of before…or watched people receive on Youtube. I’ve made some great friends which have lead to amazing memories. Several years of gymnastics and dance training has left me unable to pursue the career I intended to and while it makes me sad to leave that part of me behind the past…I’m excited to see what the future holds.

2018 marked me getting sponsored post regularly…I finally started to earn some pocket money from my blog and while it was still nowhere near enough to live on, I was proud of my little blog. When I look back on the statistic of my blog in 2017 compared to the 3 months of 2018 it’s amazing how much everything has grown…all because I’ve worked my butt off at something I love. While the past couple of months have been difficult when it comes to balancing blogging, university and a personal life by some miracle I’ve managed and up until this month I was still posting twice a week.

It seems as though March is the month that everyone has stepped their content up and it almost feels like I’m being left behind like I’ll have to play catch-up in April. Taking a break from post multiple times a week has allowed me to focus on the things I REALLY want to write about, opposed to the things that seem popular. While at one point I was writing quite a lot about beauty, I’ve realised this isn’t something I always want to write about it and therefore I’m cutting down my beauty related content. I am however loving everything lifestyle and fashion, especially combining a rambly post with a cute outfit shoot.

Especially as it seems that ‘outfit of the day posts’ no longer have any significance in the blogging world.

Although logging into my Bloglovin account I’m bombarded with lifestyle posts, it can almost feel like an oversaturation of lifestyle blogs, although each and every blog and blogger is unique in its own way. Now blogger having the same opinion or tone when approaching topics. As well as these lifestyle blogs it seems like every blogger has their own blogging tips to give…and I’m not going to lie but more often than not they’re very similar to one another…same with ‘blog post ideas’ posts. Even I’ve done one of these 40 blog post ideas.

I’ve loved watching both my blog and myself grow over the past couple of years, I’ve become a lot more work driven and I have a lot more push to succeed and make people proud. While my blog is still very much small in the overall scheme of things, I’m noticing those who regularly read and comment on my posts, or I regularly interact with on social media…and I love it.Even when I can’t find the words that I want to say, I still have the ideas and often the words will come to me at some point or another. I never try to force a post anymore that is, since I can always tell when a blogger has forced an idea just to get a post up. Sometimes taking a break and time away from writing is the best thing you can do, I always take the weekends away from posting Instagram…and while yes this affects my analytics for it, I can’t personally deal with the stress and responsibility of posting every single day.

It’s heartbreaking enough when one post doesn’t do as well as I’d hoped, let alone if it happened every single day.

After a while, Aesthetic Obsessed naturally transitioned into a small business, and it was at this point that I had to start looking into marketing and the rules regarding blogging and being careful what I shared on social media. The argument of bloggers being relatable is something that is very hot at the moment and while I try not to force anything to be faux just to be related…sometimes it just happens. Being relatable is what gets the page views…but is it worth losing yourself over? No, it’s absolutely isn’t, it’s not worth forcing things, in the end, you’ll burn yourself out.

While I will still refer to myself as a ‘beauty, lifestyle and fashion blogger’ it’s possible that in years to come these niches will change and one day I might be on of the many wedding blogs or parenting blogs since it’s impossible to determine exactly where in life I’ll go. All that I know is that I want to keep blogging up, I want to keep growing Aesthetic Obsessed and I want to stay proud of the content I create. Sure there are many posts from when I first started blogging that I want to delete…photographs I wish I could retake. Everyone does though, nobodies blog started out a gorgeous envy worth masterpiece and that’s something to remember. People learn and master things at different rates, there will always be someone better at something than you and something you’re better at than someone else.

Stepping away from blogging is okay. You’re allowed to have a break. You’re allowed to fall behind.

I might have fallen behind during March but that doesn’t mean I can’t come back determined to kick ass and slay the blogging game in April…if anything I’m looking forward to doing so. I’ve spent too long feeling insignificant to bigger bloggers to realise what amazing things I’m achieving. When I hit publish on my first post I’d never had dreamed that not even 2 years later I’d be contemplating a taking up blogging as a full-time career when the time was right. For me, it began as something to pass the summer between first and second year, how things have changed since then.

I think as bloggers we all put too much pressure on ourselves to constantly be creating new content and it’s not always possible. Life gets in the way, inspiration stops flowing or we fall out of love with certain aspects. This is all okay though, that’s the fact that needs to be accepted. Falling behind is perfectly normal, we don’t beat ourselves up if we fall behind with our laundry, we accept it and find another time to do it. I’m always falling behind with uni work due to my own procrastination but I always catch up in the end. While falling behind can be terrifying and stressful, it doesn’t make someone any less significant than anyone else, it doesn’t mean you can’t get the same opportunities, they might just come at a different time. Blogging is something you should only do if you absolutely love it, otherwise, it can be hard to find the motivation and discipline needed to be your own writer, editor, photographer, pr and events coordinator. While it might not always seem it, there is plenty of room for EVERYONE in the blogosphere.

Do you ever feel like you’re being left behind?

Love you lots like jelly tots x


All photos within this post were taken by my myself on my Olympus Pen E-PL7 in natural lighting. They were then edited on Photoshop CC 2015 and VSCO.
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